The End of The Beginning

So, after a lot of hard work and stress, my first year of university has come to a close.

It's strange to think that at the start of this year I was absolutely lost and confused, not used to such a huge campus and large amount of people. Also, coming from an all-girls high school, I had to brush up on associated with guys on an everyday basis. Not an easy task. But, being the loud and at times obnoxious person I am, friends came quite quickly.

I have met some crazy, fun and unusual people. I am proud to call some of those loonies my friends. But something I've noticed about varsity is that while I've made lots of friends, only a handful of those individuals are close to my heart and people I would go the extra mile for.

Already having a fair amount of previously-known people at my university, I have a large 'safety net'; friends that I have already become close to. While I love these people and it's nice to have a support system, it can have its drawbacks. Because of this circle of friends, I didn't venture out of my comfort zone as much as I would have liked to. I didn't let people in as much as I could have.

So my goal for next year: try to connect to people. On a close, real level. And not be as automated; pay more attention to people's responses and emotions. Share more, give more of myself.

Varsity is harder than I expected. It is not on the same level as high school at all. While I don't struggle with self-discipline, I often get frustrated with people who achieved better grades than me without working as hard as I do (such as not attending class, generally not paying attention to academics, and so on). What am I doing wrong? Are they smarter than me? But think I've been able to adjust to the new system fairly well. Although adjustments to my standards have been employed, I maintain good marks. But this holiday I want to try harder to be prepared for next year. By reading interesting books and such, not only lazing around.

My goal for this holiday: self-improvement. So that, next year, I'll be ready. And I continue on the path to my future.